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This memorial website was created in the memory of my son, John Crum who was born in Memphis, Tennessee on March 3, 1973 and passed away on July 4, 2007.
John was a very loving person. As a child growing up in frayser with his brother Jay,
cousin Joe, & best friend Frank but Frank was more a brother than a friend.They were happy boys always getting into something . John loved fishing, playing his guitar, &
riding his bike.At the age of 18 he met and married Regina Strickland. A few years later
his baby girl was born Jessica Lynn Crum she was the apple of her fathers eye.Two years later he got his baby boy Jonathan Randall Crum .It seemed like after his
children were born John's life just went all down hill.Through all his pain & suffering
John always believed in his saviour . John worshipped God & believed truely in his Saviour. I know that my baby is with his Father in Heaven..
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In the glass you can see me, but you cannot touch me
You can go 'round and 'round, yet you can't get in.
My tears you cannot wipe away, I'm here I will always stay
Break the glass and set me free, for it is with you I long to be.
I feel your love and your embrace, Outside the glass is a wonderful place.
~ Forever in my soul ~
MOM
No amount of gold could ever compare, to the gift of love that my son shares.
I've been blind and I couldn't see that all the love I've
wanted is right here in front of me.
He gives reason to get through another day.
Maybe it's how he loves me in his special little way.
And when it gets hard for me to sleep at night...
He wraps his little arms around me and says God will make things right!
From sweet gentle touches to his bear hugs and kiss...
That great big kool-aid smile and the twinkle in his eyes...
Every time I look at him it makes me want to cry.
But they're not tears of sorrow, they're tears of pride and joy...
To know that all the love in heaven is wrapped around my little boy.
~ mom ~
 It was a way of life, and sometimes it made me crazy, All that re-fixing, reheating, renewing... I wanted just once to be wasteful -- waste meant affluence. Throwing things away....meant you knew there'd always be more.But then my father died and on that clear summer's night,In the warmth of the hospital room, I was struck with the pain of learning that sometimes there isn't anymore.
Sometimes what we care about most gets all used up and goes away ...never to return. So while we have it...it's best we love it...and care for it...and fix it when its broken... and heal it when it's sick. This is true for marriage and old cars...and children with bad report cards and dogs with bad hips and aging parents and grandparents. We keep them because they are worth it... because we are worth it. Some things we keep. Like a best friend that moved away or a classmate we grew up with. There are just some things that make life important-- like people we know who are special and so we keep them close.
The afternoon of July 4, 2007 ... is the day that my son was called home to be with his saviour.This was the worst holiday that I could ever have. God needed my baby with him, so I had to give him up and for anyone and everyone who reads this ~~ the hardest thing you will ever do is give up your child. John was living in Olive Branch, Mississippi when I got the phone call from a woman that I had never met before saying simply, "John is dead". Those words will forever haunt me..... Every time my phone rings I have a cold chill.
" John is forever with his heavenly father "
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<< Hello my baby just a few words to tell you how much I miss you. >>
* I miss you coming up behind me when I would be at the sink putting your arms around
my waist and laying your precious head on my shoulder and then the Big Kiss on my cheek.
* I miss the way you would take my face in your hands and say "listen to me -- do you really
know how much I love you, do you?do you really know,? with your face all red
and hands just a shaking and say I love my little Mama.
* I miss the way you use to give me massages whenever I had those real bad headaches
and ask me "isn't this the best massage you ever had Mama."
* I miss the breakfast in bed that you would fix and bring to me whenever I was sick.
* I miss the way you would worry about me and be afraid that I might have a seizure.
* I miss the smiling face with beautiful blonde hair and the wonderful Loving & Kind Heart
that beat inside that small chest.
* I miss the way you would pick me up and twirl me around.
* I miss the phone calls every day-- "Mama, what are you doing?, - I miss you so much are you going to be at home today I need to come and see you or Mama I need to talk to you can you come get me, or to simply call and say, "I love you Woman."
* I miss those late night phone calls whenever I was asleep just to say
"I LOVE YOU."
My baby, I don't think there is a more loving person than you. Now it seems like my phone
never rings and when it does I begin to shake and my nerves get tied into knots but your
voice is never there. The void in my life is worse than words could ever say ,I know that you
know all the pain that I'am going thru and you would say to me as you have so many times -
"Mama, please don't cry I can't stand to see you cry. My baby this is one time that mama just can not stop giving you up.. it is just not bareable. Grief for your child is like noithing that can be explained for there is no pain or sorrow like it. It changes a person forever the person that I was on July 3,2007 is not the person that I am today or ever will be again.
I know that I hurt the people that I love dearly with my pain and grief but they must
understand that I simply can not help it.
All the bickering and fighting that our family does I simply have no tolerance for anymore.
I believe that losing you has made me want to live and love as if I don't have another second.
Mama sends all the hugs & kisses that she has to give and always know that I Miss You. add to 10   People ask me how I'm doing and I say that I'm ok,
The fact is that I'm not...My pain worsens every day!
I wonder what if I had said, or of all that could've been done,
If I had only known you'd be gone, My Precious, Loving Son.
Some can't seem to understand and think I should go on,
But how can I do such a thing when a part of me is gone.
They say that it gets easier and your burden is less to bare,
I just can't believe that's true when all you loved's no longer there.
I pray that God will ease my mind and show me how to just go on
And give me back the heart he took the day He called you home.
ALthough my heart is broken and my tears overflow,
I try to hide the sadness so no one will ever know.
Pretending's just not easy when you know not how to see,
The reason you are hurting...Why's this happening to me?
I'll never see you go to school or have children of your own,
The link that made my life complete is now forever gone.
I'll try to be much stronger and know that you live on,
Although I know you're there with GOD, I feel so all alone.
From this day forward I have to see that you really never died,
For as long as you live inside my heart your memory's still alive !!!
 Happiness keeps you sweet,
Trials keep you strong,
Sorrows keep you human,
Failures keep you humble,
Success keeps you glowing,
But only God keeps you going!
 
   
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I thought I saw your face today in the sparkle of the morning sun.
And then I heard the angel say,"Their work on earth is done".
I thought I heard your voice today then laugh your hearty laugh.
And then I heard the angel say, "There's peace dear one at last.
I thought I felt your touch today, in the breeze that rustled by.
And then I heard the angel say," The spirit never dies".
I thought I saw my broken heart, in the cresent of the moon.
And then I heard the angel say, "The Lord is coming soon".
I thought that you had left me, for the stars so far above.
And then I heard the angel say, " They left you with their love".
I thought that I would miss you so, and never find my way,
And then I heard the angel say, " They're with you every day."
The sun, the wind, the moon, the stars, will forever be around,
reminding you of the love you share and the peace they've
finally found. ADD TO 7       I love you with all my heart,
~ MoM ~
            
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Goodbye My Brother /
Jay Crum
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My brother, John, an awesome guy,
I don't know why you had to die,
You were so cute as a little boy,
You smiled at us and brought us joy.
Even though we had our little fights,
Over silly things like phone lines and wiring lights,
I never wanted to be a pest,
I needed your skills, cause you're the best.
I'm glad those times were only a few,
It was hard for me to argue with you.
But that's just me, as you are you,
And in the end, you always came through.
This is Frayser, where you are from,
We all are here with Dad and Mom.
Our hearts are broken, as you know,
We really can't bear to let you go.
We wish so much that you were here,
Or just down the street having a beer.
It's happy thoughts that will get us thru,
Like all the fun we shared with you.
And now my poem will come to an end,
Until the day we meet again.
I pray that you are now at peace.
Goodbye John, With Love From Jay
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 COUSINS
In Loving Memory
~~ John ~~
March 3, 1973
Cousins on my left, Cousins on my right
I've never seen cousins as close, Although we sometimes fight
As kids we where close at heart
Although we sometimes fell apart
Cousins hanging out in Frayser
Gave me one of God's Greatest Gifts
My Cousin, My Brother, My Friend
I wish your life did not have to end
Our history includes every morning driving to school
J.E. and I hoping You and Joe, would'nt act like a fool
We're grown now, and live further apart
But John, you have showed us we should always be close at heart
Till the day, I see you again
You will be closer now than you've ever been
I will FOREVER LOVE and MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Happy Birthday,
Love, G. N.
Love You Always
J.E. & Deanna
Happy Birthday Bone Daddy !!!!
From Your Dad
I heard you crying yesterday
And felt your heart-sent love
So I’m sending you this message
Now, from Heaven up above.
You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate
My birthday (way up here)
I know you’re missing me today
I feel your essence near.
God planned a special day for me
He told me with a wink
He’d ordered me a special cake
(It’s Angel food, I think)
I’m getting lots of hugs from God
He’s really good at that
And every time that I walk by
He gives my head a pat
Balloons will fill the streets for me
They float up through the clouds
And we have lots of clowns up here
That make us laugh out loud
There is a birthday carousel
Jeweled horses ride the wind
With music playing oh so sweet…
The magic never ends
I’ve made so many friends, you see
We laugh and play and sing
We ride our bikes and play jump rope
And sleep in Angel’s wings
We’ll have our cake and ice cream
And open gifts, surprise!
But we don’t blow out our candles here
Instead, they light the skies
?? WHY ??
Why is it that lately I can't sleep at night?
Is it because I am not tired?...No!
Why is it that lately I find myself day dreaming?
Is it because I am bored and am thinking of things to do?...No!
Why is it that lately I'am quieter and less outgoing ?
Is it because I am shy or nervous?...No!
Why is it that lately I feel as if everyone around me is having fun, except me ?
Is it because I'am boring and not an outgoing person?---No!
Why is it that lately I feel a burning sensation deep in mt chest ?
Is it because I have heart problems and need medication for my illness ?---No!
Why is it that lately I feel as if I have A hole in my heart as big as the earth ?
Is it because not to long ago I lost a very close loved one due to tragic accident?---Yes
Why did this have to happen now?
Why did this have to happen to me?
Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?
** In loving memory of my nephew John Crum who died unexpectly July 4th, 2007**
I love and miss you! You will always be in my heart and on my mind! Gone but not forgotton.
I will see you soon in Heaven with my loving Brother and Michael -- so until then I will not say
"Goodbye". I will say 'wait for me there' and all my Love to you all.
Aunt Peggy
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My Poem To John
You use to call me your Angel said I was sent straight from Heaven.
You'd hug me close in your arms, I love the way you felt so strong.
I never wanted you to leave, I wanted you to stay with me.
I miss your smile & the way you hugged me tight,
Even though it's different now that you are gone.
You're still in my Heart somewhere, somehow.
I can't let you go and I need you to know that I miss you so.
You use to call me your dreamer and now you live in my dreams.
I wish you could see everything that has happened to me.
I'm thinking back into the past when you hugged me tight
and now my tears are forever.
It's true that you are flying up above watching me & our family.
I miss you,I miss your smile. It's true I shed a tear every once in a while
And though It's different now that your gone your still in my heart somewhere somehow.
I can't let you go and I need you to know. I miss you, I miss your smile.
I know your in a better place I wish that I could see your face.
I know your where you need to be but I miss you, I miss your smile and I love you so.
~ Brandy ~
MY TRUE LOVE
My love, my life, my only one, many is the dream that we have spun. with your love so tender, true , you took my life and made it new.
From you I learned how to give, hand, in hand, how to live.
A touch, A smile, A gesture small, your love surronds me like A wall.
Unending, patience did you bring, making this selfish heart to sing.
You moulded this being into one, from darkest depth to brightest sun ,as through the years together we would have gone .
Growing older getting slow my love, my life, my only one.
Theres just one thing I have not done this I must do straight away,
Before the end of another day.
~ Regina ~
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Missin' You John,
Grandpa James
Grandpa Jim said, John get me some twine and a little limb an we'll make us a fishin pole to catch brim." In no time at all, he'd rigged a hook from a safety pin."Yes Sir, we're goin fishin just us men."Now grandpa he don't like bait that's store bought, so we dug us some worms and used cricket we'd caught. "Ahhh," Grandpa sighs as he shows me how to cast. Now watch real close John, we might catch us a bass. Look John! there's a catfish swimming along the shore.Why I'd bet he's at least a foot or more. Hurry up and do what I tell ya to do..take off your shoes and socks and sneak up on that Ol' Catfish... show 'um who's who! Just as I dangled my line in front of his nose, I felt somethin cold an' slimy slither over my toes."WOW WATCH "EM GO!" Grandpa looked just in time to see that Ol' catfish draggin me behind ~ "GIVE IT UP Mr.CATFISH YOU'RE ALL MINE!"... Whew! THIS FISHIN'S QUITE AN ORDEAL! Grandpa! GET THE SKILLET OUT! HERE COMES OUR MEAL! What a great example grandpa set for me today.And when I grow up ta be a grandpa, I'm goin' take my grandchildren out to play.
Always & Forever,
Deb
Miss You,
Barbara
There's no use in weeping though we are condemed to part,
there's such a thing as keeping a remembrance in ones heart.
There's such a thing as dwelling on the thought ourselves have
nursed and with scorn and courage telling the world to do its worst.
We'll not let its follies grieve us, we'll just take them as they come.
and then everyday will leave us a merry laugh for home.
When we've left each friend and brother, when we're parted wide and far
we will think of one another, as even better than we are.
Every glorious site above us, every pleasent site beneath,
we'll connect with those that love us, whom we truley
love til death. Even after.
LOVE, SHARON
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Father And Son /
JOSEPH CRUM
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They both recall a little guy
Who ran to meet his dad
For dads can somehow make things right
When little boys are sad.
A father also sees himself
When looking at his son
For God gave sons their father's traits
In many ways they're one.
Although a son grows up and leaves
A part of him still stays
For dads and sons still share a bond
Until their end of days.
In Loving Memory
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My Dad
Delightful and loving,
Loved and admired,
Dad, you're my hero,
My life you've inspired, And when all my blessings
Are counted each day,
I thank God in heaven
For Dad when I pray, Dad thanks for your presence
Throughout thick and thin,
You're more than a parent,
You're my wonderful friend
~ Jonathan ~
Our fathers toil with hands and heart
To make our lives complete
They quietly brave the winter cold,
Endure the summer heat.
Our father's lives are busy, but
There's always time for us.
They boldly face the ups and downs
And seldom ever fuss.
Our fathers are the greatest dads
We know you know this too
But thank you for the chance to share
Our love for them with you.
Your Children,
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~ To Daddy ~
At the age of 34 your life was lost I never knew how much it would
cost. Although I never thought you'd be gone, that's the only reason I am writing this poem. I've always wondered how much it would change if you were still here ....to this day.
I know I am not the only one who feels this pain. But since you have been gone, not one single time have I danced in the rain.
I know you are in a better place where the sun always shines and there's never any pain.
Well, I can not believe it ended this way.
I will always wonder where you'd be today.
~ Jessica ~
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My Dear Family /
John Crum
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To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say....but first of all, to
let you know, that I arrived okay. I'm writing this from heaven.
Here I dwell with God above. Here, there's no more tears of sadness;
here is just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I'm with you every morning, noon, and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me and he said, "I welcome you".
It's good to have you back again; you were missed while you were
gone.
As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.
I need you here badly; you're part of my plan.
There's so much that we have to do,
to help our mortal man.
God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list, was watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night, the days chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you...in the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years
because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.
I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
But if I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.
There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;
but together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too...
that as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.
If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain,
then you can say to God at night...My day was not in vain ".
And now I am contented.... that my life has been worthwhile,
knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile.
So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,
just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street, and you've got me on your mind"
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.
And when it's time for you to go....from that body to be free,
remember you're not going...you're coming here to me.
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